the hunger games

my hunger has been up and down lately. some days, i feel totally ravenous and like i could eat constantly. and then other days, i feel like eating is something i can't even fathom, and this is the first time i've felt that. while i don't feel that way all day, i feel it for usually the first half of the day. protein shakes come in handy those days so i know i'm getting the protein i need. some people have that feeling from the beginning of their post-op period but i have not had that experience at all. it doesn't worry me - i get that a lot is going on in my body right now and i will go through changes and ebbs and flows, and i'm okay with that. 

so my strategy will be to just accept what i feel and go with it - if i'm not feeling hungry one day, i'll respect that that's what my body is telling me and i'll just drink protein so i make sure i get enough calories and protein (1000 and 80 to 100 grams, respectively).

i have noticed that there is some rhyme or reason, sometimes. the week before i get my period, i'm starving. and last week, when my allergies were horrible, i wasn't hungry at all. i also notice that when i cook a lot (which i often do on sundays), i feel less hungry generally. partially, i think i taste as i go so i never get truly hungry and partially because, as my friend and chef kelly tells me, the sense of smell that is stimulated when you cook can often trick your mind into being satiated in ways that normally only eating accomplishes. interesting.