panting

so the two pairs of pants i rediscovered a few weeks ago are too big already - off to the tailor they went - one at a time, of course, as my pants options especially are so limited that i can't be without two at the same time. so for $17 a pair, my trusty tailor took in the whole leg and added a waist button. because i still wanted the same bootcut style, she nipped them in from the sides, removing some fabric from inside. they looked really good. for a week. now they're too big again, and i actually do feel frustrated by it. i've always thought it would be one of those "good problems to have," and of course, it is, but it's annoying in the morning to feel like i don't have anything to wear. i have a few pairs of 18/20s in my closet that i'm excited to get into and i'm hoping i don't miss their season, but i'm not there yet.

so i broke down last week and bought a pair at avenue, always a trusty source...first i tried on a size 24 which was okay in the waist, but way too baggy. then i bought a size 22 skinny pant and rapidly returned them the next day...just not me. when i was there returning, i tried on the other pants (from the day before) in a size 22 which were less baggy, but still a little too much. i didn't think the 20 would fit AT ALL, but it did, in a petite! they're the tiniest bit snug, though totally wearable, but i know in a couple weeks i'll be bringing them to the tailor for a nip and tuck. and then before long, they'll be donations.

my lounge and pajama pants are swimming on me, but i can get away with wearing those for a while longer. when they fall off me in the middle of the night en route to the bathroom, i'm alone in the dark so there's no embarrassment. i even laugh a little in my half-slumber state. soon, those pants too, will be purged.

it feels so good to know i'm using what i need and then giving stuff away to someone else who can use it. there's a womens' shelter right near my office that takes plus size clothes, though mitchell thinks i should share the wealth, since i've already given a huge bag to them. specifically i have a couple dressy dresses (bridesmaid dresses) and some coats that i want to make sure go to good use. i have to do some more research about options of where to bring them.

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